Tag: democracy

Make up your mind
Decide to walk with me
Around the lake tonight
Around the lake tonight
By my side
By my side
I’m not gonna lie
I’ll not be a gentleman
Behind the boathouse
I’ll show you my dark secret
I’m not gonna lie
I want you for mine
My blushing bride
My lover, be my lover, yeah

• Possum Kingdom, The Toadies

Do you want to die? I mean, sometimes I think it might be a more gentle option than the current state of affairs. Am I suicidal? No. Do I understand why Anthony Bourdain hung himself in a hotel room? Sometimes I feel like I do.

There is nothing I can say that hasn’t been better said at this point. “I told you so” seems to be the most appropriate phrase right now, given the last few months, although anyone brainwashed by Fox news and in the MAGA cult can’t see that our democracy, freedom and country is caving in on them. So saying “I told you so” would be over their head.

How do you continue to go about life and go to work 5 days a week when the country that you were born and raised in, the country that was once the so-called “leader of the free world” is turning into Russia or North Korea? I’m not sure… because at this point, I still go to work to get my pay check so that I can pay my bills and retain health insurance, but I am so mentally checked out.

I was raised in the age of “girl power”… women can do anything men do. I saw even in my own lifetime advances for women – in the work place, women being listened to and taken seriously, more awareness and punishment for harassment and sexual assault… more freedoms and acceptance to be who you are and to wear what you want. Now, I see all of these things being stripped away.

A rapist is the president of the United States. A racist, rapist, scamming, scheming, selfish fraud. A clown. How did it get to this point? I can’t help but wonder how many people who voted for him never watched the news or read any paper other than maybe the NYPost. How gullible and naive and ill-informed could anyone BUT a white billionaire man be to vote for this asshole?

It sickens me to think of the brainwashed, oppressed people who voted for this man, actually believing he cared about them and wanted to help them… believing he would make this country better. Now, we are all paying the price… our nation is paying the price. And things will get much much worse, before (and IF) they ever get better again.

I honestly cannot believe people are still willingly getting pregnant and having kids in this world. It is absolutely doomed… between climate change (and everything that climate change will cause: failed crops, intolerable heat, natural disasters), pollution (cuts to the EPA, forever chemicals and microplastics causing cancer in young adults and children), disappearing water sources due to drought (goodbye Colorado River and reservoirs), cuts to the FDA, FAA, federal funding for public schools, funding for scientific research and USAID funding, rights for women, the LGBTQ community, rights for immigrants fleeing violence and famine in their home countries, and the fact that we will likely never have another fair election again, it just blows my mind that anyone would want to bring an innocent child into this world.

I am 37 years old and in my life time I’ve seen enough shit to make me wish I’d never been born at all (to quote Freddy Mercury). I had a good childhood and early adult hood compared to most of this world’s population, and I still struggled. It’s only getting worse.

The world is overpopulated with humans and we are destroying everything that supports us. I feel so bad for all of the innocent wildlife and animals losing their homes, being hunted and driven to extinction by human encroachment and deforestation. How can we live without trees? How can we live without clean water? We can’t… and we deserve whatever we have coming. Whether that is widespread crop failure and famine, water shortage due to drought and pollution, or nuclear war… which at this point, seems like it will come first.

I wish I could turn a blind eye. I wish I was more positive and hopeful. But I see what is happening around me… how much things have changed for the worse even in my lifetime. It’s scary. It’s scary that I have no control. The best I can do is find like-minded people to talk to and spend time with. The best I can do is to help people and animals when presented the opportunity to make a small difference in someone else’s life. I cannot convince the world to care. I sometimes wonder if this is all a bad dream… it sure does feel that way sometimes.